Bossy and Beloved

Sarah Cabrera is a young woman who loves Jesus and goes after everything He has for her.  God has made her strong, full of energy and yes, sometimes bossy. She is a small group leader, an outreach creator, a musician, singer and writer.  At 18 years old, she is on her way to learning how to live loved by God and out of that truth, let Him use her for His glory.  I am honored to get to be a part of this remarkable young lady’s journey. I know you will be blessed by her today.  

– Cindy Grasso

Be confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on until completion until the day of Christ Jesus .

Philippians 1:6

Bossy and Beloved

by Sarah Cabrera

All my life, I have been bossy. Well, that is at least what I’ve started to believe about myself. On every group project, I would be the first to jump up and assign roles to my group mates. In every game, I would always want to be a team captain. I always wanted to lead small groups, worship songs, and even prayer. That was just who I was. As I started to grow older, what I believed was normal, the people around me deemed controlling.  So, I stayed quiet. The once outgoing 16-year-old leader was quiet and afraid. Afraid of what people will think of me if I speak my mind. Afraid of what they will say about me if I do what was only natural to me. I lost friends because I was “bossy.” Honestly, I blamed myself. I detested the “bossy” within me.

I would ask God, “How can you use me if I am like this? Why can’t I act like everyone else?”

A couple of nights ago, I was doing my nightly Bible study. I prayed, “Lord, I know you have a plan for my life, but right now, I feel lost. I don’t just want to know you have a plan; I want to believe it.” 

After falling asleep, I had a dream I was in a big bathroom sitting on the floor hugging my knees. A good friend of mine came up to me and touched my shoulder. 

She said, “God wants you to know that He has not left you. He knows what you are going through is hard. He knows you feel lost. He said that through all this, you are not alone. You are not bossy. You are a leader. You are not unloved. You are beloved.” 

I woke up with tears pouring down my face and a grin from cheek to cheek. That same day a coworker of mine came up to me and said: “I woke up this morning, and God put you on my heart.” She handed me a bracelet that said “Beloved” written on it.

God reminded me that His plan for my life is larger than what people think. Through every season in my life, He has been present, reminding me of who He has created me to be.  God has shown me that He has given me the traits to be a fantastic leader, and right now, I am only 18. I don’t know how to use my gifts correctly. 

So yes, I may come off a little bossy. But what I have learned is that is not necessarily a bad thing. I’m still learning. But God is my creator, and He does not make mistakes. 

Don’t allow the world to place an identity on you. Everything God creates is good, and that includes you. He beautifully and wonderfully makes you.

What the world says is ugly, Jesus makes beautiful.

What the world says is broken, Jesus makes whole.

What the world says is bossy, Jesus makes a leader.

What the world says is unloved, Jesus calls beloved.